Michele (Shel) Prusa:  

Ok, so I have been asked to update, funny, so I will do my best, gotta tell you though, will only change some of what has already been written! Don't worry, you can hang & read it all the way through, if nothing else, it makes for a better morning paper :). So, let's see, I am single with four(4) children and 1 grandchild. I go to 2 universities and am starting an 8 week course on Febuary 1 as well. When I was in Jr. High, I messed up alot, well let's face it, when I moved to the "big" city at age 14, my life bacame a complete mess up, and I was a party animal, who loved all, got nothing right, yet, everything right. My dream came true that I wished and prayed for every night when I went to bed living in that small town of Milan, Ohio, and when it came true, I did not know how to handle it. I can say however that I was never biased and cared for all, (which caused some of the problems), I was always the type that did not stereotype. I spoke to and made friends with everyone. Never thought I was better than anyone, but in this world and at school age, this does not always work. I was truly a loner, yet fit wherever and how ever. Many people gossiped, which I was told by many was due to jeleousy. Something, even to this day, is beyond my comprehension, because what was there to be jelous of? I never did anything to hurt anyone and if I did, it was NEVER intentional. Frankly, I was hurt more than was claimed I hurt any. So truly, that little girl from Milan, inside of me, still does today. Troubled, scared, loving, giving caring, waiting, wanting to "save the world", hoping for change, and wishing that someone would love me for me and not leave, die or lie. Just like I assume many others feel, accept, I have always been willing to admit it. I admit to my faults, unworthiness, shameful acts and sadness that I may have caused another. I instantly make amends. I only wonder and always have, how many others have throughout their lives. I know that over the years I have had quite a few apologies to me for some of the cruel things they did to me, but those of you whom have yet stepped back, looked closely at your world, is there room in there to make amends for those things that may have carried into anothers world and made such painful experiences linger into adulthood? Creating what possibly could be a lifetime of turmoil to them, because of that one or several acts that changed the way they looked at themselves? So, off of that, probably lost half of you by now, hey, what can I say, maybe you never really knew me if this seems unexpected, if not, you really were a true friend! Anyway, there are a lot of people here that I am so very happy that I have retrieved contact with! Like you Tracy, our little trip to Arizona (and funny that I go to college here, AZ), the 3 of us, a memory you & I will alway's have to carry and one which we have to remember Jerry by as well. Have a lot to remember him with don't we. I won't mention other's becuase maybe other's would not wish to be mentioned personally, I just want you all to know that I have very fond memories of so many of you and I want you to know that these shoulder's may still be tiny, but bigger than life if any of you ever need! ANYTHING! The world is screwier than when we were young and many need more than what is in their lives now, well I am extending an invatation to utilize my knowledge and heart for your purposes, otay?! More enlightenment, aw go ahead, you might enjoy it!I am sure there will be some who understand this first part...not to worry, the rest is English. Pozdrav, kako si? Hej, kako ste svi vi bili? Moje ime ...Expand for more